the long way home

Sometimes it’s good to remember that the shortest distance isn’t always the best.

In our world of life “hacking” and “speed” and “more” — the shortest distance from A to B often appears to be the best if only in order to get “further” during the time we have.

But exactly where are we getting “further” to? (will we even know how to appreciate it when we get there?)
Exactly what are we thinking these kinds of hacks are going to give us when we’re on our death bed? (what will count on your death bed? it should count now.)
How are we even guaranteed our death bed is any specific period of time out? (we’re not.)

The life hacks are just that — hacks. You skip from here to there, but you miss out on the journey itself.
When you “quantum leap” you miss out on some of the delights along the way.
And speed? Well, you don’t even give yourself long enough to be with the beauties that are ache and pain and rejoicing and love and desire.

There’s a time to take the jump. To fly and fly fast. To move to where you know there is to go. When you know that’s what there is to do, do it. But, I can bet that you don’t actually desire to spend your entire life this way.

I bet for most of us, we’re totally okay taking the long way home.

heaviness

When was the last time you felt heavy? You know, that weighty, somewhat irritating, squeezing in, tightening, constricting feeling that “time” seems to be the only thing that offers relief from?

Maybe you felt heavy in your physical body after eating. This can come from eating too much, drinking too much or even consuming particular ingredients that don’t agree with your body. Your morning coffee creamer may be delicious, but if it leaves you feeling heavy.

Maybe you felt heavy in your heart. News of someone you know hurting, looking at your online bank account, opening up the mail or even wanting to express and share a particular communication but you just feel like you can’t. It’s heavy.

Maybe you felt heavy when walking into the “spare bedroom” where all the junk seems to accumulate. There it is. All the stuff that you said you wanted or needed at one time, not going to the use you thought it would. And it just feels heavy — like too much.

Sometimes the weight we carry around is material — the actual weight on our bodies, in our homes; sometimes it’s immaterial — the feeling of heaviness, pressing down on our shoulders, our minds, our hearts.

What I know is that heaviness is not a required state. At least not for an indefinite period of time. The only way we even know “heavy” is because we know “light.”

So, when you notice the heaviness, make note this experience is only being had because you know a state that is lighter than this.

And choose to practice letting the heaviness go. It is not required. And trust me: your most enjoyable, healthy, best life is not a heavy one.

To lightness,
Meghan

a b(ehind) t(he) s(cenes) look

All spring and summer, it was nothing for me to write seven, ten or even twelve thousand words a day, most days. I would wake up in the morning, roll over, grab my MacBook and literally just start typing from the moment I woke up until I knew it was time to move to the next thing. (Usually brushing my teeth, washing my face and getting coffee.)

That was partly a habit that I had installed. A commitment to using my daily writing to actually be the housing place for all the things that would surface in my mind. Any random thoughts, any musings, basically anything that came to mind, if there was anything about it that was “note” worthy — it got recorded. Written down on the screen, with these fingers as the conduit.

But there was another aspect to that much writing that not only did it feel like I “had” to do it (habit) but I really, really, wanted to, as well. And thankfully, not like all habits, this habit of writing out all the random musings that came to my head a very powerful “clearing” effect on my mental state.

Through writing this way I was able to distinguish between things that actually did require my attention and planning, energy and efforts and things that were just taking up mental space and didn’t need any of my energy at all. Through writing I was able to acknowledge what was there, get clear on whether or not there were actual next steps to take or not, and then move on. The moving on looked like either taking action on those next steps or simply moving onto the next thing, whatever it may be.

What would often end up happening is after having cleared out all the random thoughts and worries, concerns, fears, excitements, planning, I would then be open for whatever true creativity wanted to come through. It’s almost as if all the smaller-but-more-pressing issues were clouding the larger-but-more-optional ideas that wanted to present themselves.

I have not maintained this type of vigor with my daily writing the past several weeks, and I have felt its effects in my mental state. Even habits we really, really enjoy and see incredible benefits from are not always enough “in and of themselves” to keep us engaged. Especially when life continues to happen and events continue to unfold and it appears other things are begging for more of our attention.

For now, It’s 10:30, and it’s time for me to sleep. I have invested the last few days in taking all kinds of new actions. Most of them aren’t things I’ll ever do again, or at least not in the same way. But once you find something that works, keep working it. It’s why I will keep coming back to these words on this page.

More later.

Embrace the MESS

Last night I did a livestream where I both talked and was a living example of what it means to embrace the mess/chaos of creation.

Look, if you’re going to paint, expect to get some color in some places you didn’t originally plan to get it.
If you’re going to write, expect to have some words come out that you don’t love.
If you’re going to start a business, expect to make some decisions that don’t work out.

Call it failure, if you want.
Call it a mess, if you like.

Or just embrace the fact that it is apart of the process! There is no “one” way — there is no neat, clean and tidy from the get. You wouldn’t even want it that way. What you are enjoying the most is the creative process, not just the creative outcome.

Because for the creative-type, the happiness is in the creation itself. It’s in the freedom to create. It’s in the freedom to make a mess. It’s in the freedom to take the mess and choose it, like you meant to do it. Because you did.

You meant to show up.
You meant to go for it.
You meant to be the world’s best try-er.

You meant to be messy.
You chose this.

Perfectionism is a myth. Whatever creative endeavors there are for you to undertake and to continue are ready for you right NOW. There’s nothing that you need to do to get started. Maybe it will feel messy. Or maybe you’ll drag it out so slooowwwwly that it won’t be messy. But if that’s the case, then there’s a pretty high chance that it also just won’t BE.

And your art wants to be lived out.

Will you let the paint splatter now?

Are you willing to let the "challenge" be "easy?"

The work itself has different challenge levels. But you can’t arrive at a new challenge level until you’ve knocked out the previous one.

There is no skipping ahead.

So once you get to the work itself, as challenging as it may be, it can also feel pretty damn easy. Because you’re ready for it.

But what ends up happening most of the time is you never get to the work. Instead, you stay in your head. You stay with your thoughts, you hold tight to your feelings — they all feel so difficult to overcome. You fool yourself into thinking you’re actually doing the work because of the incessant chatter going on up in your head or the overwhelming feelings you have in your body.

You’re not alone. We’ve all done it. And we all do it, sometimes.

We fool ourselves into thinking we’re working but we’re not — we aren’t actually leveling up our ability to be with new challenges — we’re just spinning circles in our head about it!

But once you actually get to work, you will, without a doubt, experience a moment of “ease.” You’ll notice that the challenge itself is nothing compared to the story you were making up in your head about it!

When you arrive in that moment, be grateful for it. Notice how you worked for this moment. Be grateful when things are clicking, and take that time to dream even bigger and plan even further out. What are the next possibilities? The next creations? The grander vision of success?

You can only get clear on your vision when you have chosen to practice removing the chaos of our mind and its distractions.

Let the challenges come because soon enough, they will feel easy and it will be time to create something else. Because if you’re honest about anything — change is the only constant and it’s either happening to you or you’re happening to it.

You have what it takes to create change for yourself instead of being at the whim of your surrounding conditions.

In the pursuit of your goals, dreams, hopes, and plans, you’re going to face a challenge. If it wasn’t going to feel a little challenging, you would already have achieved it, right?

Challenge is what makes the journey so sweet — well, looking back and seeing how you’ve overcome it, mostly.

But the way we most often approach challenge and difficulty is like it’s a warning sign instead of a big WELCOME invitation.

It IS a WELCOME invitation, my friends. Are you willing to be in the game and level up your difficulty levels with ease? You don’t do that sitting on the sidelines. There’s no challenge over there. All the challenge you think you’re experiencing, before even getting in the game, isn’t the real challenge. That’s just the bullshit story you’re making up in your mind.

I get it — it feels real. It’s why you sometimes need someone calling you out on the ways you’re stopping yourself before even getting started.

Don’t stop before you get started.

Let someone in to push you, kick you in the butt and even harass you with a lot of love and care when they see you quietly sitting on the sidelines of your life, just “waiting” for something to happen. Let someone in to face your fears with you and show you they really are just a bunch of lies.

If you ARE willing to be in the game, if you’ve said YES to yourself, to your goals, to your dreams, to your work, to your fullest self-expression and to receiving the compensation and value in return for your gifts that you know you are so worthy and deserving of… then you’re going to have to get okay with the prods, the kicks and the line-in-the-sand kind of love.

Find someone who you trust. Find someone who hears you. Find someone who believes in you. Find someone who you want to exchange energy with, build momentum with and do the thing with! And give them the permission to poke, to prod, to push, to call you out on your bull shit.

Because we all know you actually DO have what it takes. There’s nothing separating you from anyone else or from anything you desire to achieve except your own excuses and slow-pedaling. The challenge will always feel overwhelming when you’re not even in the game itself. Get in the game and watch the challenge become easy.

Until the next one. 😏

Today's Plea

If you’re someone who aspires to lead, to make a difference.
If you’re someone who has seen yourself as a change agent, a difference maker, a healer, a conduit, one to “stand in the gap” so to speak.
If you’re someone who has ever looked on the suffering of the world and said: I want to help.

Your time is now.

We need you. The world needs you.

For years and years in my young life, I felt this calling. To say what there was to say. To do what there was to do. To keep myself uncomfortable, always pressing onward, in order to be able to share from a higher place.

And then, I got distracted. I got distracted with life and bills and money and relationships and goals, and I don’t have to go on because you know.

But nothing you do can cancel out your call. Your call is your call. It goes no where, even if you do. It’s patient. It doesn’t mind that you aren’t heeding it.

But the ones you are here to serve, may. Don’t worry, they never knew help was on the way, anyway.

This kind of work is like nothing you’ve ever done before.

It’s not one that says, “Okay! I will volunteer _____ hours at ____ organization and show up to ____ march."
It’s not one that even says, “I will give $______ to _____. That will help!”
And by god, it’s not one that say, “When I _____ I will finally be able to _____."

Your calling is not contingent.
Your calling does not care what you think you do or don’t have together.

All the calling needs is you. Willing to do the work.

But please hear me.

The work is on YOU first.

If there’s a single thing in your life you don’t feel in INTEGRITY about...
If there’s a single part of your experience you know you are living in HIDING around…
If there’s anything you know you are HOLDING BACK on — big picture, small picture, it doesn’t matter...
If there’s anything, at all, you are AWARE of that needs to change…

Get to freaking work.

Commit hell or high or water to heal the shit. Do whatever it takes. Go wherever it takes. Find whoever it takes. Give everything it takes to get in integrity. To step out of hiding. And to become hyper aware of how you “be” in this world. Healing can come through you, and it wants to come TO you.

Because do you know where the Healing that we want so badly for our world is going to come from? Where the Love that we desire is going to come from?

It’s going to come from WITHIN you. It’s going to come “AS” you!

You’re not a leader/healer/change agent who hears a message, claims to know it, and then regurgitates it. We’ve had enough of those.

Whatever your truth is, speak it.
Whatever your path is, walk it.

And don’t let fear keep you from “changing” as you go — that’s why it’s a path! You will uncover new things to heal as you go. You will change. And you’ll share from all those points along the way.

But must actually start.

It’s time to get going.

No more playing games.
No more staying comfortable.
No more living in the shadows.
No more avoiding the chisel that wants to break the thick crust that surrounds you.

You’re in there, just waiting to shine, to share, to heal!

But first — it’s requires you do the work of showing up for you. You know what’s next.

Stop Making It Harder Than It is

Showing up is the work.

It’s really that simple.

Every time you go in hiding. Every time you resist a conversation. Every time you don’t commit because you’re afraid you’ll fail or fall...

You aren’t doing it.

This isn’t hard.

Showing up is the work. And it isn’t even hard!

Is what you may experience when you go through whatever it is, challenging? Sure. There’s an element of challenge. But THAT is the part that makes you better & the part you are always proud of yourself for doing!

All the story ahead of time about showing up that you think is so hard and challenging is NOT. And it’s not helping you grow.

So you’re literally over there wasting your time.

Until you show up.

Showing up is the work.

Then you do whatever there is to do, but it actually ends up being kind of fun, and you enjoy it, and you get better. You may even have some tears. But their tears of having given it your all...not tears of “if only...”

There’s a big difference.

The work is just to show up.

What is it time for you to show up to?

Starting In On Your New Idea

I talk a lot about “starting" because that’s the first step.

To get a new idea, a new venture, a new creation, a new possibility, into motion, there is a “start.”

Thinking about it isn’t starting.
Rolling it over and over in your mind isn’t starting.

In fact, many times your IDEA — so full of life and energy, as it came from a higher place than you, downloaded into your system, ready for action— sometimes that idea gets beaten down by your thinking brain!

It may sound something like this:

Alright, let’s get to work!

If I’m just able to _____.
And then if that happens, I can ____.
One thing I’ll need to look out for is _____.
Oh, but what if _____?
And ____ won’t like this.
I’ll need to _____ first.

On and on your thinking goes, turning over your new idea this way and that way. It thinks of possibility, but also thinks of hedging. It ponders the sheer brilliance of the idea, but also ponders all the ways it could go wrong.

And none of that is starting.

The start is a singular action.

Making the call.
Sending a message.
Scheduling something on the calendar.
Standing up.
Sitting down.
Googling it.

I love to think, so one of my first singular actions is: Writing down my thoughts until I can get clear on what the next action is.

All of this is starting.

You’ve heard the saying, “An object in motion tends to stay in motion.”

One singular action will simply invite you to another singular action.

There is no right or wrong, good or bad. There is just to stay with the actions … until.

Maybe until you’ve seen your idea all the way to completion!
Maybe until you’ve determined there is a “wait” period, and you will revisit another time.

Taking the action is when you begin.
Taking the action is what moves things into motion, keeps things in motion and “actually” brings your IDEA into reality!

We spend so much time thinking and worrying and stressing and fearing and trying to get all the details planned out and trying to say what’s going to happen ahead of time that we exhaust ourselves…

Before.
We.
Even.
Start.

Give yourself a break! Don’t exhaust yourself up there in your head, doing nothing but thinking.

Invest your energy into doing. Invest your energy into showing up. Invest your energy into action.

Your Idea wants to shine.
It wants to be shared.
It wants to be actualized!

The muscle you must exercise to start the thing is the same muscle you’re going to need every step of the way.

So you may as well get to working out that muscle now.

The Idea isn’t going to create itself.

How Isn't a Feeling

Some days the words flow, and other days they don’t.

But does that mean there isn’t something to say? If the flow isn’t there, if the feelings aren’t matching — does that mean there’s nothing to create?

Must I feel creative to be creative?
Must “flow” be the only way to get things done?

On the surface, the answer is: Of course not.

I have shown up plenty of times in my life without feeling like it. I’ve reported into work, punched the time clock. I have shown up to lead meetings, teach classes, go to the dentist, walk the dog… all without feeling like it.

I know you have too.

So this isn’t a matter of whether we “can.” Of course we can.

My question is — HOW. And that is a choice.

HOW do we show up even when we don’t want to show up?
HOW do we create even when we don’t feel like creating?
HOW do we get things done even when it doesn’t feel like flow?

Most often it’s done with a sense of obligation… I have to. I have to show up. I have to lead. I have to do the thing. Even though I don’t feel like it. I have to.

But the reality is… that’s not true.

You don’t have to. You could opt out. You could call it quits. You could go do something else. Try a different path. You could make a different decision.

But if it’s THE THING you want to do… If you know it’s part of your path, part of your journey, part of the plan…And you don’t want to do it, even then?

Taking it on with the energy of “I have to” is kind of like approaching someone you love the same way. What kind of relationship is that?

So how else? If it’s not most powerful to show up with a sense of obligation to the work, AND we just flat out don’t feel like it, and there are no flow, no good-feeling-vibes to be found….

What do we do?

We choose a how that works. A how that’s powerful. A how that doesn’t rely on feelings. I mean, sure you can show up with a sense of obligation, but you can also choose any other context in the entire world.

It doesn’t have to feel like flow for us to choose to show up with all our love. It doesn’t have to feel easy for us to show up with all of ourselves. It doesn’t have to feel like anything.

Because the “how” isn’t a feeling.
The “how” is a choice.

Surprisingly, choices often change up our feeling state, too. (Try it: Choose to smile!)

But, it’s s a secondary benefit to still showing up for what it is that’s important. What it is that we love. What it is we’re committed to.

So, when the want-to isn’t there, and when the flowy feelings aren’t present, I choose to show up with all of me. Just with whatever bits and pieces that may come along with that. Not because I have to. But because I choose to.

Does Money Have a Place Inside Self-Actualization?

(These words will take you somewhere. Follow them till the end?)

Money money money money (rockin’ everywhere… oh, wrong lyrics. 😉)  

I need more money…want more money…more money, please!  

I know most of us don’t talk like that. But, somewhere deep in the recesses of our soul, we’re thinking — if only I had more money all my problems would be solved. At least most of them. 

When I have more money I’ll… 

👉🏼 Invest in myself. Experiences, pleasures …Trainings, coaching. I’ll finally have the budget for ME. 

👉🏼 Be able to get the gym membership, the personal trainer & finally get consistent with my work outs. (🎶 I work ouuuttt… 💪🏼) It’s too tough right now to just “wake up early” and do it by myself. 

👉🏼 Buy the healthy, organic food. I’ll even meal prep and plan and have the cute stickers in my cute journal, and the food situation will be on lock. 

👉🏼 Actually enjoy my time off 🤩 🏖 No more dreading going back to work because I’ll have “plenty” and the demand just won’t be there. 

👉🏼 Spend more time with the things and people I love. I’ll take off early some afternoons, have long weekends and pick up some hobbies and creative endeavors I know I’d enjoy.  

👉🏼 Feel lighter. More free. I'lll have more S P A C E to float about and just “be.”  

Most people do not claim with words that money is the “solution” but we carry a vibe with us that says: Once I have the money handled, then I’ll ______. 

Let’s talk about “having the money handled.” 

First of all: What does that even mean? No debt? More income? No surprise bills? No car repairs needed ever again? What about having your retirement secured? What if you end up living 20 more years than you anticipated?  

But second of all: If we keep waiting for one thing, to be with another thing, we’re going to spend our whole life waiting. 

There is something for you to be with right now. 
And that’s what there is to be with. 

And when you’re honest with yourself you actually just know what it is. 

You know when you’re scrolling, and your higher self is like — No. Nope, nope, nope. That’s not what we’re doing right now. 

You know when you’re going for another glass of wine, or stuffing down the last of the fries or reaching for the donut, and your higher self is like — Uhm, hello? What are we doing here?

And you know the same thing happens around money. You work hard for what you make, and you feel like you know what there is to do with it. No need to really examine the motives or the energy — as long as it looks good on paper, right? And higher self is like — Hey, there’s a better way.

But we stay so distracted we barely even hear that Self. We’re just trying to make it through another day. Trying to get by. Easy does it, we think. Don’t get too crazy, now.

There is a Voice. And it is speaking to you about the way in which to go. 

But most humans are still operating inside a pretty static-filled channel, and the Voice that is trying to lead just isn’t coming in that clear.

Before we go off making plans and trying to create our grand visions “by the book” or in some logical form — wouldn’t it be best if we did the work around tuning into the Voice? 

The Voice is what knows best for all-time, not just for now-time. 
The Voice is your future Self who knows where this whole thing is going and is trying to make itself known, so you can live more aligned. More true. More whole. 
The Voice is not interested in protecting your ego, your personal identity or your accomplishments. It’s not interested in having you look good and be right. 

The Voice is only interested in you remembering who you really are. 
The Voice is only interested in your Self-realization which inevitably becomes Self-actualization. 

Being able to clearly distinguish the Voice from the noise of the mind, then, is the first thing there is to do.  Because it knows best.

It’s what you want anyway. If you’re honest….You really just want to live fully. You want to have the deepest peace, the most grounded certainty. You want to know you are exactly where you’re “supposed” to be.

This isn’t apathy. It’s not resignation. And it’s definitely not laziness. 

No, quite the opposite. Presence. Acceptance. Awareness. Peace. These are powerful, powerful ways of being.

What you want comes into view clearly, front and center, when you choose to face reality instead of your own illusory stories. 

See, the Voice exists only in Reality. It is the Truth. And It is All That Is.  

And it’s yours. It’s you. Once you begin observing, you notice — all that other stuff, the static, the fog, the confusion, the pain, the suffering, the chaos — it’s all a story you had believed and taken on as your own.

And now you get to relax into Reality.

What does this have to do with money?  

Everything. Because everything is everything. You and your life? You’re just one big ball of ENERGY.

Money is where most of our stories seem to begin.  

Don’t have “enough?” We’re tight. It’s tight. Everything’s tight. We’re suffering. Hard to get along with, talk with or really do anything with. Just have to get out of this situation, and then we can feel better.
Have “enough?” We’re okay. All’s well. Live and let live! Eat drink and be merry.

And up and down the rollercoaster goes. Don’t be fooled by time, either. It’s a facade... 
For some the pain of “not having enough” comes up every month and subsides as soon as they get paid.  
For others, it comes up once a year when they spend too much at Christmas or take the family on the annual vacation. 

For others, it hits when the stock crashes or the kids need help or a diagnosis gets made.  

When the sales don’t come in or the employees quit or just… life! 
What if you could release the tightness and never feel it again, regardless of circumstances or situations? 
What if you could be fully present, relaxed and grounded, always? 
What if peace was your energy? Clarity was your power?  

What if a steadfast following of the Voice was all you ever concerned yourself with, knowing It will lead you to your Self? That Self, by the way, is the most relaxed, vibrant, creative, love-filled Self ever!

It’s possible. It is the work of our life because it’s the work no one else can do for you. 

Self-honesty, self-awareness, self-acceptance — these are the foundation pieces to put into place. Ultimately, the path leads to self-realization. 

A realized Self. An understood Self. A recognized Self. 

That Self, fully seen, will actualize. Here, in form. Your human existence will be exactly as it was originally designed to be. You will play full on, with no regrets, no apprehensions, no hold backs, no take backs. 

Just You shining You.

The True Nature of Love

“Surely, if I love enough, give enough, share enough, be attentive enough, help enough, be kind enough, patient enough, understanding enough… surely! If I love this way and put myself aside time and time again… surely! I will finally be filled. Full. Complete. I will have made a difference. I will have made THE difference! And I will be fulfilled. Complete. I will be loved in the same grand way I love!"

Looking back now, I can see that’s how I spent the large majority of my life. As in: All of it. Except maybe as a very small child when our love is still pure.

Somewhere along the way fear creeps in, and we begin to “love" in order to feel safe. We begin to “love" in order to create a space of comfort around ourselves. One where things seem predictable and ‘measurable’ even. “If I love this way, then surely _____."

No longer do we Love for Love's sake. No longer do we shine the very essence of Love for the beauty that it is...

No, somewhere along the way, we decided love needed to get to WORK.

We decided the purpose of love was to fill a need out there with someone or something else.

And if that’s the way we give love, then of course, that’s the way we receive it.

Something missing? Love can help!

As if love was what would close the gap of insufficiency.

I understand the weight of what I am about to say. And here it is:

Love does not close gaps. 
Love does not fill needs.

Love is so all-encompassing, so all-consuming, so unconditional, it cannot even see a condition within which there is a “gap” or a “need.”

Love is what it is, as it is, always. It IS the perfection.

Love isn’t lacking, and it doesn’t see lack. 
Love isn’t in need, and it doesn’t see needs.

Love cannot earn its way, sacrifice its way or give its way to completion or wholeness.

Why? Simple…

Love IS the completion and wholeness.

Why would it need to sacrifice itself for itself? How could it? It couldn’t.

But we try. And it is what keeps us insane… in a cycle of something always missing, always broken, always lacking.

If we pin love in a way is scaleable, measurable... “enough” or “not enough” … we keep the very thing we want to correct and see changed, separate, elusive, out there, “one day."

To heal our world, to heal ourselves, to correct our perception, to make a difference that makes THE difference, only one choice is required...

That choice is to believe Love is all there is. And thus, Love cannot "give" Itself away at all, but it can share itself. It can extend itself.

All of what occurs and unfolds in our personal worlds and our collective world... all that looks like it is not love is simply the out picturing of our forgetting the all-encompassing nature of Love Itself.

So... May we remember. 💖


The Wish for Guilt

It’s a very real thing in our world that we have masses and masses of people who actually want someone to be guilty. They want someone to be wrong. They simply are committed to someone, somewhere — or something, somewhere — not working.

And by not working, there is a divisiveness in place. A separation between what works and what doesn’t. The possibility — the probability — the inevitability! — that for someone to be right, there must be someone wrong.

Can we look just for a moment at the absolute ludicrousness of this statement?

How is that that for someone to be right, for something to be right — that someone or something must be wrong?

We carry around a wish for guilt. It is engrained into the program of our world. This world is simply not our home, and yet the way we treat it is as if it is. This simple denial of reality is the foundational reason our entire experience is upside down. We perpetuate it with the children we raise. We perpetuate it in the conversations we have. We perpetuate it with ourselves — blaming ourselves, ridiculing ourselves, shaming ourselves, judging ourselves, rearing ourselves inadequate, inept and insufficient.

Something is missing.
Something is broken.
Something needs fixed.

It is as if we wouldn’t know what to do with ourselves if all was well, perfect and already complete.

If we weren’t spending our time, energy and attention on trying to “fix” things all of the time, we may actually have to face our real Self and… Create! Be! Love!

It’s easier to say we want a better world while simultaneously holding out our wish for guilt than to actually have to BE who we really are — perfectly perfect embodied conscious, divine, all-consuming energy.

The wish for guilt gives us reasons to stay small. It gives us reasons to try to play it safe. It gives us reasons to tinker with this thing and mess with that thing instead of taking on the expression of perfection — where all is well, always. Where nothing is missing, and nothing is broken and here, in this moment, the wish is for peace.

Will we let our wish be for peace?

Once it is our wish, it is ours to have. Thought it will take what it takes to experience it…Letting go of everything that’s keeping us from it.

Let’s start with choosing to let go of the wish for guilt.
Let’s start with choosing to let go of the need for someone to be wrong.
Let’s start with choosing to let go of the attachment to there always be a "problem.”

What if the only thing between here and there, what we have and what we want, is our perception that this gap is actually real?

It can’t hurt to try.

We Lose Our Wonder -- Squelched By Fear

10,957.

That’s a lot of days.

For being someone who claims to love sunrises as much as I do, I haven't seen terribly many.

Positioning myself just so in order to catch a glimpse of that big gaseous ball of energy that has not failed me once, making its appearance at the break of day?

No, instead, I’ve spent many days feigning how I need more sleep or grabbing coffee and “getting to work.” Or simply not thinking about it at all — my vision impaired by something much more "pressing."

Going out of my way to see a sunrise never came across to me as a very efficient thing to do. Lovely, sure, but, a little too much effort then the reward would seem to give, most days.

And plus, someone’s got to get to work.

So, I would settle for the random occurrences. Usually while driving to an early morning appointment...

There the sun would be, lifting up its head, making its presence known through the warm, hearty glow that overtook the landscape, before its rays actually even hit; the perfectly sparse clouds permeated in deep pink and blue; the sky itself changing shade from dark to day.

And as I'd look up to examine horizon to horizon, it was clearly still night in the west and becoming day in the east.

And this was morning. A moment that shouted a little more subtly than others: Look at me.

What? I’m pretty sure this thing that has made its appearance, without fail, every single day of my life (and for nearly 4.5 billion years….4.5 billion years. Must I repeat it? 4.5 billion. years.)… has got its job down and is doing just fine. It has lost nothing.

But me?

Now, I might lose MY wonder. Captivated by other things that “need” done led by fears that seem real.

We lose our wonder — squelched by fear.

So instead, we accept that most of life is meant to be pretty, well, normal. Lack luster. That fear and its dictates are the way life on earth is supposed to go.

And that these special moments … they are special because they give us a glimpse of something more meaningful, more beautiful, more surreal such that, maybe, “one day,” we’ll get to live this way indefinitely.

It does not matter who you are, where you came from or what you believe: If you are a human, you live in a world setup to squelch your wonder. To package things neat and clean and say here: This is what is true. Nothing else to see here!

Be wary of the thought someone or something else is "out there” trying to “get you" or “take your wonder.”

No, my friends, there is nothing trying to attack you as much as it is trying to distract you. This is simply apart of the human condition we face.

Part of being human in the world is the pull of the world to lesser purposes than we know we were created for (and we do know.)

The pull of the world is to less wondrous ways of being.

It takes something to be someone committed to a life of wonder instead of fear.
It takes something to be someone committed to a life of creation instead of consumption.
It takes something to be someone committed to a life of transcending the ways of the world, the pull of the world to be “normal,” to be “average” and to focus on survival of the body instead of expansion of the essence.

It takes something.

What does it take? Well, it takes everything that’s not that. (Read: Fear.)

This isn’t about paying your way to a wondrous life. It’s about letting go of everything that keeps you from it.

Your natural state is wonder!
Your natural essence is expansion.
Your natural essence is creation.
Your natural essence is eternal, abundant, life.

This is who you are. It’s who you’ve always been.

And everything, everywhere, always, will do its best to keep you from this. Even the seemingly more noble things in life like “caring” for others or “earning” a living. If we show up to life at the cost of our wonder, can it even be said we are really living?

If we don’t wonder now, when will we?
If we don’t create now, when will we?
If we don’t transcend now, when will we?

All of us experience the pull to live lives as mere humans...most often promised that after we die, something will change. We will become who we were always meant to be!

How interesting that we have come to believe physical death is the way to eternal life.

I will let you in on the secret: It is not death that is the way to life. Only life gives way to life.

This is it. Please do not wait for heaven. Heaven is waiting on you.

The invitation of heaven is to a more wondrous way of living, a life full of more awe and astonishment, a life where the world and its lesser ways fade and fade as we are enthralled with all that is captivating and real.

When we slow down enough, we know… the invitation is not coming from without, but from within. Always beckoning. Sometimes whispering through a flower. Sometimes shouting through tragic news.

Whatever it takes...

May we hear the shouts. May we hear the whispers. But may we hear. The call to wonder, the call to heaven, the call to life now, while living. May we not delay another day.

For tomorrow, we really do die.

What it takes to live in peace

As a 20-something, “peace” wasn’t really at the top of my core values.

Adventure. Experience. Passion. Fun. But peace? No, thanks. I’ll be peaceful in my later years.

But the more self-reflection I did, the more I realized I was setting up a construct of peace “or” something else. Somewhere along the way I had embraced the belief I could either have a good time in life, with the turmoil that may bring, or be peaceful. As if peace was something that automatically meant a boring, mundane, meaningless life.

So for years I chose adventure and turmoil, because I couldn’t even see how “peace” could be a good time.

I’ll save the long story for another day, but to put it simply: You prove yourself right every time. And I proved myself right time and time again that I couldn’t live a life of adventure and be at peace. Instead, I would live my life of “adventure” and experience dramatic high highs and low lows. I’d get into the darkest of times where, in that moment, I’d trade almost anything for peace…except my sense of living.

So, to move on, I’d deny whatever that dark time was, and get back to living — knowing turmoil was around the corner, in any moment.

I’m grateful to have done the work of self-reflection and really work because I now know that I can live in peace and have my life be as adventurous and meaningful as I choose for it to be. I can have it all. Truly.

This kind of peace though — the kind that is real and powerful, the kind that allows you to keep living your expansive life while keeping you in its state — is earned.

It’s earned every time we exchange being “right” for what works.
It’s earned every time we let go of one way to find THE way.
It’s earned every time we choose to abandon that which kept us from it. 💗

Must We Continue to Be So Cliche? The Time is NOW.

I’m not exactly sure what it’s going to take to turn this ship around. But I know my part requires me to keep saying the same thing over and over in different ways, turning it this way and that way, every day, all day, for the rest of my life. At the risk of sounding cliche.

Here it is for this moment…

You will DIE.
But you are not dead yet.
The time is NOW.

What are you waiting for? What are you holding out on? What are you saying you’ll do this weekend, next week, next month, next year? What are you saying you’ll do after the kids are grown, after you retire, when you pay off the house? What are you saying you need to have happen before you can make a bet on yourself? What are you saying needs to line up, or get together, before you can go for it?

Look, I KNOW you have convinced yourself of two things.

  1. Your life is pretty good! You actually enjoy it. You love the people in your life; you love what you do most of the time; you’re decently proud of yourself for all the ways you’ve survived, made it and got “here.” Look at all you’ve overcome! Look at all you’ve been through!

  2. Your life will be better one day! You regularly look at what’s possible. You have vision, dreams, desires. And they spark a little something in you from time to time that you’re convinced is going to be what inevitably draws those things into your life.

There’s the money situation that you talk about year after year after year. I’ll pay that debt off by 2019; I’ll have started that business by 2015; I’ll purchase that first investment I want as soon as I make $_____ in sales.

There’s the health situation that you keep coming back to again and again. You make progress and feel so good only to have LIFE happen (vacations, holidays, emotional upsets) and get off track. But you get the story going: I’ll start that back up next month! I’ll look into the fitness program tomorrow. This will be so much easier when my spouse is on board…

There’s the time situation that you want more freedom around. I’ll wake up earlier when I can finally go to bed earlier when my kids finally listen to me and go to sleep on time. I’ll really start to enjoy my weekends when I don’t have to spend them cleaning the house and running around showing my face at this and that event. I’ll be able to do whatever I want when I can finally get the money situation together, so I don’t feel tied to someone else’s dime, on my time.

You get it.

Like I said, you’ve convinced yourself of two things: Everything is good now. And life will be better one day.

Guess what?

Life will not be better one day. Because life is NOW. And this is it. Will you choose to live? Will you choose to show up? Will you choose to go for it? Will you choose to embody your body and play the magnificent role of human while you’ve got the chance? Will you say what there is to say, do what there is to do and be who there is to be NOW? Will you dig a little deeper, surrender a little more and be willing to be seen? To take a risk? To take a chance and face your fears?

What’s worse, really? The fear of failure, disappointment and looking weak? Or actually having not lived fully while you’re alive?

Will you decide now? Or will you wait till next week?

Shifting Out of the Old Game Into the New One

I know you're afraid to commit. I know you don't want to fail again, fall again, disappoint again.

I know fear stands there, looming, telling you it's not safe to try again. That it's best to get yourself together first.
I know judgment stands there, shouting, telling you it's never enough. That you're never enough.

You don't want to be weak.
In fact, you know you aren't. You know you've got stamina so few around you do. You're in it. You show up. Again and again.

But by God it feels like you just can't sometimes. It feels like you're so tired. Tired of trying. Tired of walking out onto the same battlefield. Tired of picking up the same weapons to wage war with.

Tired of trying to create change. 😩

Isn't this supposed to shift at some point? Isn't all this work I'm putting in supposed to actually shift something? When do I get to relax?

Maybe it's just best to give in.

But inevitably, you have a moment! 🤩

Because you actually know who you are. You can see it, sense it, feel it. You get glimpses from time to time, and it feels so right. It feels so right, so real, you take action. You commit! You get back out there and start again.

"I'm making a change. Things are going to be different this time. Let's do it!"

And then -- BAM. Knocked out. Again! Tired. Exhausted. "Take me out of the game, coach, I need a break."

And in comes the judgment proving its nasty comments to you again.

↳ See, I told you you couldn't do it. 
↳ I told you you'd fail again.
↳ I told you that it wouldn't be worth it.

And on and on the cycle goes. And every time you're out of the game, it gets reinforced a little bit more: See. This is who you are. Stay small. Stay safe. Stay realistic.

My dear...
You are playing the wrong game. That game is designed for winners and losers. And you are SO FREAKING ABOVE THAT.

That game is designed to kill, and it reminds you of that every time you just want to relax but feel like relaxing will cause someone or something to come beat you down and end it all.

That game is designed for "game over" at some point, and all its plays are leading toward that end.

There is a new game for you. ✨

It has different rules entirely. You haven't played it before, so it's going to take some getting used to. In fact, there's going to be times it feels pretty painful. Leaving everything you've known behind. All the things it seems you worked for, earned or won.

But if you look closely: You know none of that's for you, anyway. When you see that glimpse of the real you from time to time, you know all of that pales in comparison.

Thew new game is going to take some practice. But first, we've got to shift out of the old one. I promise you it will be worth it. 
🔸 The new game has no winners or losers. Only players.
🔸The new game is designed for life, and every turn gives you the opportunity to have fun experiencing more of it.
🔸The new game is eternal, and there's nothing (nothing) you could do to mess it up.

Commitment is still required. But it is not the kind you think.

This commitment is simply the choice to play. 🚀

Why Shutting Up Will Make You a Better Leader, Creative, Artist or Craftsperson

Shut Up & Work.

Harsh, right? I wouldn’t say it if I didn’t love you. I wish someone would have told me this earlier, so hear me: You can talk about it. Or you can be about it.

For all you types that like to talk (myself included), I will share a brief glimpse of hope: Being about it may very well include talking.

But there is a necessary predicate. A framework with which you must build first:

Your work will only take root from a place of being about it.

Most often, for those of us who like to talk, that first requires a real commitment to shutting up.

Shutting up our own rambling distractions.
Shutting up our wild hair tendencies toward drama.
Shutting up so we can hear ourselves.
Shutting up so we can stop being swayed by this one’s opinion or that one’s ideas.
Shutting up so we can finally do our own work.

Not the work you just so happen to “find yourself” in, but the work of your life. The work that there is for you to do here. The work of creating. The work of being. The work of embodying who you really are — the high, expansive, radiant, light-filled, gold-standard YOU that you are.

Everything else is simply saying “yes” to a lesser expressed you. And from what I know, you’re not about that life.

What Not To Leave Behind When Intentionally Creating Your Life

When you’re on the journey of creating your life, there are choices to make.

You will inevitably have to leave things behind that do not work for you anymore. This clears up space for what is to come. And often, you will leave things behind not yet knowing what will take their place.

When you’ve been on the journey for a bit and exercised this muscle through doing it a few times, you start trusting the process. Let go of what doesn’t work… Let in what does.

But stay vigilant. You can trust the process. You can trust your Self. But the nature of your smaller self would try to have you believe that some things don’t work anymore, when they actually very much do.

This is the work of self-inquiry. Of playing the active role as the observer in your life, instead of identifying as one with the minutia. Every day, you deserve to have an honest conversation with yourself about what it you’re up to. Every day, you owe it to yourself to pay attention, to watch how you are being, or not being. What alignment, or lack of, you are experiencing.

Every day, there is to set your intentions on integrity with Self and be open to whatever that future, higher version of you says to do.

By all means, leave behind what doesn’t work.
But don’t leave behind what does.

Use Your Mind, Change Your Life

You can feel down.
You can feel out.
You can feel like nothing is working the way you want it to.
It can seem like you’re in a daze or a dense fog.
You can think things aren’t making sense.
It can seem your goals are out of reach.
It can seem like you’re in a loop or a cycle.
You can have thoughts like: I don’t have what it takes; there’s just no way.

And guess what?

Life is still going to go on. Things are going to keep moving. You are going to keep breathing. You will keep waking up.

Life might go on with you in a mood.
Things might keep moving with you a little bitter. Resentful. Irritated. Angry.
You may keep breathing with some sadness. Depression. Anxiety. Discontent.
You might wake up and choose to stay in bed all day.

Basically: You may choose to live in resistance to life, but life does not care. It all keeps moving, anyway.

So what is there to do? Your “attitude” IS your experience, and it seems like you’re stuck in this rut of a space. It feels like life’s going on with you. No matter how much you know intellectually, it seems the embodiment of all you know just isn’t coming through. Your experience of life is suffering, and you don’t see a way out.

I hear it more than anything else:
I know I am my own problem!
I know it’s me in my own way.
I know it’s just my thinking.
I just need to get over it.
I just need to change my mindset about it.

But then nothing happens. Except time. Time happens. And things seem to get either slightly better or worse… only because conditions shift one way or the other (as time will do.)

What about when you want to transcend time?
What about when you want to transcend conditions?
What about when you’re the person who says I WILL NOT suffer my way through life.
I WILL NOT live less than who I know I am.
I WILL NOT be miserable.
I WILL NOT, NOT, hit my goals and show up for my self, my mission, my world.

What about when you’re that person? What’s there to do?

Let me tell you…

It’s to put in the work.

It’s to put in the practice every single day of training yourself to use your mind in a different way. To shift it from old, disempowering ways of thinking to new, powerful ways of thinking. To shift it from ways that didn’t work to ways that do work. To shift it from an outward focus for answers to an inward focus for the solution. To shift it from waiting to doing. To shift it from needing to having. To shift it from separation to connection.

Talk about peace. Talk abundance. Talk about freedom…

When it feels like things are ending, they are not.
When it feels like it’s the “end of the road”, it is not.
When it feels like you’re about to lose your mind, remember there is no where for your mind to go.

There are plenty of things out of your control.
The one thing that is not out of your control? Your relationship to your mind. It's begging for a change. You're begging for a change. It's time for change. Lasting change. Real change. Don't-recognize-the-old-you change.

But will you show up for the work? This rocket's not going anywhere without YOU. 🚀